And so it begins...

The next chapter...

After all the hurt and pain have subsided, or well have for the most part, I've been left with some peace and quiet. Not a lot, but some. I'm getting to enjoy my house that I haven't stayed in much over the past week or two for numerous reasons. I have things I not only WANT to do here, but HAVE to do here. And well, just because of all of the drama, not all of those things can stop.

For the past few days I've let stress overwhelm me. Stress about money, stress about all the other 'issues' going on, stress about other people or for other people and all of that stress clouded my ability to focus on the opportunities I have right now to change things up.

One of the opportunities I have is starting a business with my good friend, Marie. It's something I always wanted to do, making and selling soaps and other natural bath products (think the botanical store in Practical Magic) and the best part is she takes care of all of the web work, marketing, labeling, etc. I just have to make the product which realistically is the easy part. I started tonight with my first batch of soap that I've made in years. Hopefully, I wasn't too rusty and this turns out okay. I made a peppermint and orange/bergamot castile blend. It smelled yummy going into the mold and hopefully it 'bakes' well and cures out well too. I guess we shall see, so fingers crossed. I have a lot more scents on the list but for tonight one batch was enough. Part of this business also involves the herb garden I've somewhat started. I have a bunch of wonderful seeds on the way and need to get them started growing as soon as they get here. I need to replant a bunch of the seeds I'd already started due to a mishap with Roxie (the dog) and the seeds which had already begun sprouting LOL I'm hoping that by the time autumn rolls around I'm going to have not only a wonderful herb garden but a wonderful veggie garden as well. I'll add pictures as I can...

The next order of business will be making other things to sell from the house and getting the horse thing going again in full swing. I don't want to train anymore, I just want to buy, train and sell. No outside clients I guess is what I'm getting at, I just want to do this on my own level in my own time frame. I don't know how well it's going to work given the current state of the economy but anything is better than nothing at this point, or at least that's what I keep telling myself.

I figure that eventually, it all has to come together. I mean, I know how to do a million and a half things and about a million of them could make money so that's what I need to focus on from here on out. Things are going to be harder being alone again but I did it for a year, what's the difference now really? I'll make it, because I always do and realistically, what other options do I have? So life will go on, or start fresh, however you want to look at it. I'm excited. I'm also nervous and afraid I'll fall flat on my face but I guess a little bit of that is good for everyone. I'm happier now then I've been in a long time and I intend to keep it that way. I will make it work.

Until next time...

Starting over...

It's going to be scary. But you know what...I also know that in time, it'll all be just fine. Starting anything is never easy, taking that big leap is never easy. But, I guess what it all comes down to is that you gotta have a little faith. So...off I go into the great unknown. I think I like this feeling.